Many say they’ll risk it all


Many say they’ll risk it all,
And lose their life to do your call;
Leave behind their friends and dreams
To seek your Kingdom’s living streams
To be with you and sing your praise
To hear your voice and feel your grace.

But many hearts get stifled too,
Forgetting quick their sight of you.
The joy which once consumed their might
Gave way to pleasures that last one night
And in their sleepy comfort cry,
“Oh when will this vain life pass by?

“Where is the joy and all the praise,
I thought would last through endless days,
When every thought was filled with you
And everyone so quickly knew
Why every breath that left my lips
Were filled with words that soon eclipsed
All other talk of mundane things
Like weather, sports and diamond rings?

“But now my tongue is bridled by
A fearful heart that cannot lie.
For when I plainly told the truth
Rejection, scorn fell on my roof,
But silence made my soul cry out
‘You faithless coward, full of doubt!

‘Choose today whom you will serve
The One whose love you don’t deserve
Or people thinking well of you
Because you do the things they do.’”
So in my pain, I soon took flight
To safer harbors of delight.

“Loving you is too dangerous!”
I thus confessed the outrageous.
But soon like tasteless poison kills
My lesser loves destroy my will.
With python strength, they choke my heart
All passion dies without a start
What little embers I have left
Will disappear, leave me bereft.

Yet there you wait with open arms,
Your gentle words cause no alarm.
Surprisingly you say to me,
“I love you still, I’m not angry.
Little one so full of fright
I gave my life to give you sight.

Now you can testify of me,
Of rescue from depravity.
Your sinful heart so full of lies
And self-deceit, the pride of life
I have replaced with something new:
My holiness will dawn in you.

And in the deserts of despair
A flood of grace will pour forth there,
Dousing out the flames of sin,
Washing out the fears within.
From cataracts of thundering height
Forgiveness, mercy rush with might
That I may fill your inmost place,
Inundate your every space.

I bought this promise when I bled;
My righteous prize for you instead.
My Spirit dwells in you, O jar
Your brittle frame hides something far
Brighter than the brightest star
My fullness dwells inside your heart.”

I gasp and wonder–is it true?
Almighty God, could this be you?
Speaking words of love to me,
Showing unseen truths you see?
My lifeless soul at your command
Springs back to life, a firebrand.

Loving you, a gracious gift,
Nothing can compare with this.
It fuels the passion of my soul
And frees me from fearful control.
O let me do this without fail
Until your promise has prevailed!
For now my love I’ll lose it all
Because by faith, I hear your call.

The taunts against Jesus demonstrate the superiority of God’s folly over man’s wisdom

And those who passed by derided him, wagging their heads  and saying, “You who would destroy the temple and rebuild it in three days, save yourself! If you are the Son of God, come down from the cross.”  So also the chief priests, with the scribes and elders, mocked him, saying,  “He saved others; he cannot save himself. He is the King of Israel; let him come down now from the cross, and we will believe in him.  He trusts in God; let God deliver him now, if he desires him. For he said, ‘I am the Son of God.’” (Matthew 27:39-43)

The crowds, chief priests and elders are ruthless: while Jesus is dying on the cross they bring to remembrance every twisted charge against him. This is different than declaring to a person their crimes: they are mocking him for his claims and “rubbing it in” as it were and taunting him in his position of utter weakness on the cross (“kicking a man while he is down”).

They say that every one of his claims have been disproven:

  1. Jesus cannot save himself, therefore he cannot rebuild the temple in three days.
  2. Jesus cannot save himself, therefore he cannot be the mighty king of Israel.
  3. God is not saving Jesus, therefore God must not approve of him and he cannot be the Son of God.

Ironically the logic of each reviling is quite opposite of what was actually going on. Jesus could have saved himself with awesome overwhelming power and 12 legions of mighty angels at his disposal.

  1. Because Jesus’ body is the true temple where the fullness of God dwells, he allows it to be destroyed by the people so that in three days it could be rebuilt into an eternal resurrection body.
  2. Because Jesus is the King of Israel he is not saving himself, but giving up his life to save his people. He intentionally does not come down so that the people who do believe in him will be forgiven for their sins on his account.
  3. Because Jesus is the beloved Son of God who trusts God perfectly, God does not deliver him, but pours out his wrath on him who bears the sins of the world. In doing so, he wins for his Son a name that is above every other name, displaying his beloved Son’s glorious obedience and unmatched humility and later vindicating him through resurrection, giving him the distinction of being the death defeater, and then exalting him to the highest place above all rule, power and authority.

Therefore God has highly exalted him and bestowed on him the name that is above every name,  so that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth,  and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father. (Philippians 2:9-11)

Jesus’ response to injustice against himself

But Jesus remained silent. And the high priest said to him, “I adjure you by the living God, tell us if you are the Christ, the Son of God.” Jesus said to him, “You have said so. But I tell you, from now on you will see the Son of Man seated at the right hand of Power and coming on the clouds of heaven.” (Matthew 26:63-64)

Like a lamb led to the slaughter Jesus was silent before his accusers, but this does not mean he had nothing in mind as he watched the events unfold.

You can imagine the high priest’s frustration as his plan to condemn Jesus to die seems thwarted by his terrible false witnesses. He knew they were making up false testimony and twisting Jesus’ words, but try as they might none of the witnesses’ could agree! Their plan was falling apart and Jesus would go free.

Then to his relief, two people manage to get their testimony to agree–you can imagine one witness simply mimicking another: “I heard this man say he is able to destroy this temple and rebuild it in three days”. “Yea, that’s right, I heard him say that too!”

This testimony was also false since Jesus actually said to the leaders, “destroy this temple (referring to them destroying it) and I will rebuild it in three days (referring to the resurrection of his body, which would not have been obvious to the hearers). In any case Caiaphas is glad to finally catch a break, but Jesus does not respond to the accusation which came from the two witnesses.

Frustrated, the high priest jumps the gun and gets to what he wanted to ask all along–”Are you the Christ? Are you the Messiah? Are you the Son of God?” The term Son of God was used in reference to the Roman emperors, which of course the Jews refused to worship as divine, but according to John, the Jews understood this question and claim to be that God has a Son–one equal to Him who shares in all he has including divinity. Caiaphas attempts to trap Jesus by combining both titles in one question: it was not blasphemous for Jesus to call himself the Christ, the anointed one, which much of Israel was hoping for to deliver them and establish their kingdom as a world power, so they had to convict him of blasphemy for calling himself “Son of God”. Blasphemy would have no weight in Roman court so they also had to charge him with sedition against the emperor for calling himself “Christ”.

One can imagine in Jesus’ mind the unamused sigh when the high priest adjures him by the Living God to answer the question because he knows that the priest is referring to his Father, with whom he just had a difficult, but critically important conversation in Gethsemane and who was with him in that moment, guiding him in what to say and do. So after keeping silence, as the Scriptures prophesied he would, he answers the question by turning it back on the high priest: “you have said so.” You make it out that I claim to be the Christ, the Son of God as you mean and intend it.

Jesus knows that they are looking for a reason to kill him. From their earlier conversation, he knows his Father wants to glorify him as he lays down his life to be a ransom for many and drinks the cup of God’s wrath on their behalf. Out of reverence for his Father and love for his sheep he wanted to do it too. His Father also promised that the outcome of his death would be his exaltation to the position of full authority over all things.

So Jesus gives the high priest what he is looking for but answers with a precise correction: “from now on you will see the Son of Man seated at the right hand of Power…” Caiaphas wanted to pin on him the charge that he claimed to be Son of God–blasphemy to Jews and treasonous to Rome–and Jesus refers to himself in response as Son of Man, affirming that he would be visibly elevated to the favored right hand of Power as promised: “sit at my right hand until I make your enemies your footstool” (Psalm 110:1). This is the position where God Almighty uses his power to exalt the one at his right hand by subjugating all enemies to him and making them lie down at his feet to be a footstool. There is no question, Jesus here claims to be the Christ and Son of God as he means it, the one to whom God would give absolute authority.

So Jesus responded to the false accusations and the trap question with God’s promise to him, guided by the Spirit of his Father, knowing that these words would seal his destiny. The high priest jumps on his words, skips careful cross-examination and instigates his fellow judges, most of whom had been plotting Jesus’ demise with him all along. They all immediately demand that Jesus be executed for blasphemy (as needed for their court). The high priest and leaders would use the other half of the “Christ and Son of God” claims to convince the Roman Governor Pilate to have Jesus executed as an enemy of the state by saying that he claimed to be King and that releasing him would be an affront to Caesar whose authority was being directly challenged (John 19:12).

Jesus in his bold serenity, meekly but resolutely proceeds through the harrowing process of his execution in order to enact the greatest victory of all time. After the agonizing prayers in Gethsemane, Jesus knew with renewed conviction that his Father would turn every injustice committed against him into unimaginably glorious good in due time and so with every word and deed, he confirmed his prayer: “Your will be done!”

For to this you have been called, because Christ also suffered for you, leaving you an example, so that you might follow in his steps. He committed no sin, neither was deceit found in his mouth.  When he was reviled, he did not revile in return; when he suffered, he did not threaten, but continued entrusting himself to him who judges justly. (1 Peter 2:21-23)

Rejoicing in Absentia

Last weekend, Ceaseless won Best Existing Code and Best Use of the Digital Bible Platform at Code for the Kingdom Bay Area.

I missed the announcement of the winners because I had to catch a flight back to Seattle. This poem describes my reaction to news of the award while waiting for the plane. You can also share in my pre-pitch anxieties in Waiting to Pitch :-).


Rejoicing in Absentia

Buzz in my pocket,
Text from a friend:
“You won two top prizes!”
Couldn’t stay to the end…

Phone calling, messaging
Could it be true?
My team didn’t tell me–
What more could I do?

My dad and I offered
Thanksgiving to God
For giving us favor
When things seemed too hard.

From nervously pitching
To waiting for plane
My heart was rejoicing
Regardless of fame.

A message came in,
The award was confirmed.
“Glory to God
For glory unearned!”

More than achievement,
This was a sign
To start making things happen
For now is the time

To reach every person
With prayer and grace
So Jesus’ name
Would be everywhere praised.

Let there be ceaseless prayer
For everyone on earth.

Soli Deo Gloria.

Waiting to Pitch

Poem describing how I felt before pitching at Code for the Kingdom Bay Area. See Rejoicing in Absentia for part 2.


Anxious waiting, bated breath
Drumbeat heartbeat, racing mind
Blinking, shaking, questioning
If I’m crazy.

Theory, practice,
saying, doing,
knowing, proving, hoping
Grace will be enough.

Sigh of relief
peace to relax
boldness to ask
For the help that I lack.

Outcomes unsure,
is my heart pure?
Puzzling fear,
mockers are near?
Whatever the end,
celebrate with friends.